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I'm not cool

Well, it doesn't take Einstein amount of thinking to figure that out, but I just realised that I really am not cool!

I am in constant thought of what I might need, should I pack this or can that be avoided? Am i forgetting anything important? I am making lists every other day and I have a calender that tells me whats on the list besides the usual ! And when i'm home , I am in 2 minds - I am gonna miss something huge or will I move on quickly to a new phase. Why am I not excited and hyper as before? I am actually searching the net to find pre-wedding "jitters" , ya that's the term used! When I have some time in hand, I am looking for work, sure I find something. I am checking documents, papers, whining abt my case study! I feel guilty over naps in between the week. When I fall sick or I am tired, I push myself even more...I'm not craving to watch a movie or go for a drive....What's happened to me????

But then ofcourse, what is your definition of "cool"?
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BlackThorn said…
cool - to b totally laidback, the opposite of being panicky, picky and narrow minded. living for the moment and not mere existing. not the tenso types - well, this is my view of it and unfortunately i hav meet jus 1-2 guys of this sort[ im talkin abt the totally cool dudes here] :(
3:15 AM
Anonymous said…
Hi,
Nice. You are just like every human being. I mean every one thinks the way you think. Most of the time we end up thinking about mundane things. We will be peaceful when we are free from constant internal talk.Easy to say but difficult to practise. Glad to read some candid things.
Have you ever read White Lotus by Osho. It is really a nice book. It may help us understand every thing on the earth in a better way.Of course, it may answer your query.
6:54 AM
sharikahline said…
i7,
danke!

ramanjaneyulu,
thanku! do u blog?
4:08 AM
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